What did I do today?

Okay lets see.  What did I do today? 
Woke up,  went to do routesetting with shuk at climbers lab then went to safra.  Was supposed to meet nino and aizan for dinner then they had some ec meeting dinner crap so I ended up just climbing.

Was an okay session I guess although I fell at the last tile of the white route and cut my thumb lol.  Spammed like 4 routes in a row after that.  Kama and khuz came as well. 

Climbed with shuk too he was spamming the overhang blue route Haha.  But then his finger pain so couldn't really climb.  Told him to go back and Ice it, seemed really bad.  Hope it gets Better uh!

Then went back to meet dex at pasir ris we went to west plaza for a massage! Did back massage plus foot reflex.  Was awesome although I swear the masseuse was trying to kill me.  It hurt like crap.  I felt like I was being choked out of my life while he pressed on my back.  Spent $43. Think tonight will sleep really well.

Dex passed me my bday present in advance.  Thanks! Someone's going Australia yo! Have an awesome trip.  Have fun and stay safe! :)

Okay training tml.  Am tired and shall head to bed.  Nights world.

Meaningless

Sometimes I feel as though everything is meaningless and that I'm wasting my time struggling as a human living in this works and trying to go about in my life.

Why?  What for?  We all eventually die one day.  Why struggle and fight so much for?  When it is all meaningless in the end.

Just suddenly feel very tired Of everything. Maybe I just need a break.  A break from everything. 

I feel like just pitching everything away. And just drift to nowhere and live a recluse life where no one can find me. And I'll b there just living life by myself,  exploring the wilds, reading my book,  writing my next novel and going food hunting.

No stress about school,  work,  or climbing.

I need a break or escape from this all. 

Re blog

Just remembered that I still have an active blog that's not too outdated.  So I guess I'll try update this in pieces to keep my sanity.  :)

继续吧

对不起我放不下这段感情。
我还是会继续喜欢你,只到我真的觉得没希望或这我再也不喜欢你了。

Okayy it's settled

I guess I finally know my answer.
My hurtful liberating answer.

Confused

Sigh why u make me so CONFUSED.  like when I'm like sian and wanna give up u give me new Hope by giving me some hot.  Lol.  So that I like u even more and my heart aches even more everytime I see you while not knowing the answer. Haha. I wonder if you're evil oblivious or nor sure what to do yourself. 

On a side note seeing you and chatting with u for even 10 min today was awesome. It made my day and I was really damm happy can. Then now u don't wanna reply me lol. I shan't disturb u. 

Let it go

Oh gosh. I hate youuu.

And it really feels good to not have to contact anyone for the whole of yesterday.  I just want to be left alone.  Which part of alone u guys dont understand? I'm sick and tired of caring about everything. 

Let it go.