Okay I know I said I wanna forget about trent. But it's so hard and now that in not so obsessed like last time, i kinda feel that he's not a rebound but rather that I truly like him. I think waheed was the "rebound" guy. I hung around with him abit but once I realized I liked trent I sorta stopped. I just felt that it wasn't fair to the person I liked although we had nothing Haha. It's ironic what we can do for the sake of love Eh?
Sigh I hope Moses can get over his ex and start afresh especially when he goes to Canada in Aug . He deserves it man. It's been nice knowing him but sometimes he stalks me abit too much and care too much about what time I reach home macham my dad or older brother Haha. I wish trent would care for me in that way lol. But he does care uh. like when we climb and if I get injured or sth he'll ask me if I'm ok etc Haha. Aiyah he cares for me more like a normal friend than anyone special.
I tried asking him out for dinner tonight lol. He seemed to stall for time before telling me he couldn't make it. Not sure if he really had sth on our he just paiseh to reject me up front? He really is a man of mysteries and mixed feelings. Why can't he give me a direct answer! Just a yes I'm interested or no I don't see u that way the nicer he treats me and the closer we get, the more I'm gonna be hurt in the end. .. trent please be more responsible and man up can? Why oh why do I have to fall for you? :(
Its awesome to have a crush because I'll secretly be happy and my heart beats like mad when I anticipate seeing him or when I actually see him haha. He sorta gives me strength for now in climbing haha. If he rejects me I think he'll be a source of sadness but at least I can move on uh.
Trent, what are you actually thinking? It's really Okay if u have no interest in me but I wanna know so life can go on. It's so hard to be left hanging and not knowing. And feeling like an idiot waiting for your text àhhhh. But these few days he's been pretty receptive Haha. Doesn't reply all but still will reply me somewhat. Better than last time. So seems like we're closer, but maybe as friends? Idk uh Cos he still seems to gay with ky abit too much lol.
like Moses wanted to go prawning sat night so iinvited him along them he asked me to ask ky to go lol. It's like they're attached to each other uh. anyway ky don't wanna go, haven't told him that lol. . if I tell him I think he don't want to go liao lor. Sad case. Of course I want him to go do I can see him la but then I also need his help In pprawning Haha.
Noooo don't think so much. It's not healthy to fantasize so much about him lol. stupid shuk keep planting impure thoughts in my head Haha.
sigh! Nvm Here's a picture of my first ever human flag! Shoulder hurts like crap Haha but it was fun. Hope shuk's fingers recover soon.
Training Tml. Must send my yellow in the left wall! :) Allez Janet! Okay impure thoughts only when I sleep ok? Hehe. Lol I keep thinking of kissing him haha. and how I want to hold his hand when we're walking lol. I don't dare la. Too much at stake.
